F up. >:(

tonight is my worst night in kk. even sttudy till morning also better than tonight!!! go gaya street also cannot?!?! damn! why must u so worry? even my dad also can see im not happy at all tonight. >:( dun wanna talk about it anymore.

the happy part of the day is.......... I WATCHED RAPUNZEL AGAIN!!!!!! hahaha, same reaction, laugh then cry then laugh then clap hand!! :D:D:D esther is there too, so, she was kindda like shock when see me clapping. ahaha. and NARNIA WAS SO NICE =) i love it!!! i mean, i like the old one more la, but this is quite funny also ^^

p/s, anyone is going to watch rapunzel and cant find anyone to accompany, CALL ME!  =)

=)

Christmas!!! =) happie. can feel the atmosphere here already c: the cakes, songs, trees, decorations, cookies, the ginger bread................ ^_^ a lot had happened. ykt broke up with his london new gf, jan jan was like so close to me now where everyone asked him if he is dating me, i went up oscar's car and it was so nervous ~.~,i went breakfast with easter's church fren, Mr. S almost call up my dad but he didn't cuz he think that is not necessry to do so, a week without money and 3 weeks without comp (i can explain. my money is gone cuz i borrowed it to VV to pay her DIGI stuff and my comp died where i sent it back to the shop), and rapunzel (i can watch this show for 1000000000 times. wont bored), gaya street where i bought my pants.., saw Noel (my 3 days bf) at times suria. can't recognise him at that time but i can 100% confim it's him cuz he asked me this afternoon if im at suria on sunday. ~.~ i met ah boy's "boss" :D during the dog show. he was sooooo nice that he wanted to lend me his dog to go competition. btw, ah boy is a dog own by an uncle named stanley song who has 1 pet restaurant and a pet shop in 1borneo... ah boy is so freking adorable. i prmised myself i'll get a golden retriever when i have tis ability to own a dog =), i saw caroline with her chihuahua i heard all these time from VV in the dog show... grace came back from KL, and the sad thing is her mom came back too, the slippers she bought <3, my beloved twinkie, progress test, peter and his sis... so much. :D and i guess i've made up my mind on my career :) hope my dad support me la ^_^ i wish to go canada >< i know it's far but that is the place my dad is trying to go when he was young and now, i can fulfill his dream for him..? =) hope so........... psycology.. a completely new career field for me. saw this course at UCSI flyers. i think this course suits me la. hmm... and my second choice is journalist. ahahhaa.  my dad suggested this course to me. :D sure he wont say no la. keke

p/s easter lee, i've updated my blog now. lolz.

shit u la!!

臭~你家的书桌是用来摆美的啊？我用着那书桌当然是乱的啦！！“我要那书桌什么东西都没有” 那我们不是要在地上读书？我决定回古达！！费事留在这里看你们的脸色！o0o

sushi day

today is sushi day la!!!!!!!!! why owh? cuz... yiyi spend us go Sushi King eat RM2/plate sushi. we're like, 100 years never eat sushi like that.. XD i took the picture of the empty plates ady. hahaha.. but it's fun la... no need eat dinner owh...!!! XD and.. at least ctw came to ask me about it when he saw my status.. :D happie lar me.. >< and yeah, today i went alamesra to bank in money. it's not me the one who bank in money actually.. it's ivy -.- im just a driver for them... hohoho.. nothing special la today.. just that we ate sushi till we want to vomit d now. lolz. my Mr Lim ask me not to get food poisoning or tomorrow i will not be able to go exam. XD i think nothing will happen de la. :) sleep early lar u mixiao chen ^___^

ishhhh

看到留言留得很亲密给你的人，突然在你墙上写上东西，我有些莫名的不好受。做什么都不是。酱又不是那样又不是。:-( 做莫会酱子的哦~ 有人找他关我屁事咩~我又不是住海边，不需要管酱多关于他的东西吧？~.~ issshhhhhh................

chem prac exam...

erm.. ngai get tin yung hakka loi xia blog gim nyit. =) ngai gin zao xin xiu dao gi send bin ngai geh sms o. hao hoi sim. XD zo ma gai shi chin du hao you jin xin... gi hao chiong.......... ben hoi nga geh gai jin o. XD hi mong nga ba hiao zong yi gi la ^__^ 


gong zon tiu loi.. gin nyit geh chem prac kao c ng meh hao nan, ya ng meh hao yung yi... zong den la~ hao choi... gi mao oi wak graph... heh gong gi you wak graph ar.... ngai c bin gi kon du ko yi o.. hahaha.. ng d dao gi kao c kao dao lom ben yong ler? :) yit tin hiao sai geh lor... gi an li hoi... :P ng xia lor.. li bai c zai xia.. li bai c kao bio prac o.. bong ngai dao gao gi ng chut wak graph la. :D:D ga u ga u...!! 

Saturday.......

It's Saturday... Ctw went to his 2nd day of camping...... Miss him o~ haha.. It's my weekly routine again... What routine??? Erm... Let me tell u ar... My weekly routine is go out early in the morning with my aunt and then go fetch her children at11.30am and then we might be goin to karamunsing to have lunch...? Then weight be goin centre point again and then maybe go home after that. Lol.. Today is the only day I can stay whole day at
home la.......... But suddenly need to fEtch ppl.. I'm not comlaining about what la.. Maybe thos is the way to repay them lor... I feel so cacat to blog with my aunt's iPhone... Lol. She's doing some treatment ar 1 of the Chinese doctor here in lido... And I hope o can go home asap la.... Miss u ctw ;)

101010

it's 10th of oct 2010. so, we will write our date like 10.10.10 and yeah, today is a special day. :D why special? haha.. coz of lots of things. =) dennis and the father went to KL for the 10k run organized by Nike. it's kind of waste for me cuz i can't go. :( so, we, 3 ladies (me, grace and q ngiong zai) went ti church la. and, im basically the driver of the day after church. I FEEL STRESS FETCHING SO MANY PEOPLE IN ALPHARD!!! i drive the fastest is 70km/h today!! OMG~ i can't imagine how slow is that but yeah, i get to drive everyone to Karamunsing, 1 Borneo, Karamunsing capital, and yi po's house safely.. :P kindda, urm.. proud of myself? XD ANDANDAND.. my parents came today. they went to see shop*konon konon* and like usual, i received a very big lecture from my dad. :) AND FOR THE 1ST TIME, IN THIS SPECIAL DAY, i told him EVERYTHING!!! EVERYTHING IN MY HEART. i never talked to him these deeply and i never voice out when he's giving me a really really big lecture BUT TODAY........... i voiced out. according to grace, i voice out cuz i can't stand it anymore. =D finally after 19 years of life living in this world. :) i told him that my chem result is NOT GOOD *when i say not good means NOT GOOD, BAD!* yeah, so i thought of stopping school after this term which is next year january. he asked me what do i want to do if i stopped school and i can't answer his question. hr has a point. i can't do anything with only AS cert and that cert is so not nice. and i told him that i'm MIGHT not studying pharmacy. why? cuz of my CHEM! urgh. my chem suck. i know. no matter how hard i studied for chem i cant get a good result. give u better explanation? i can't. seriously. whenever i did all the passyear and asked question, i'll get a really good explanation from tuition teacher or lecturer or friends but still, I CANT GET IT! im not a chemistry person!!! :( i can do well in biology and maths but please not chemistry. and my dad has another point too.. my foundation is too weak. it links to form 4 and 5. and my dad explain to me why didn't he come to visit every 2 weeks like what he had promised although i didn't ask for his explanation. he has to work really hard to earn back those money his ex-staff stole all these time and he has to find money to cover all the expanses like staff's salary, food, etc. and, i get a hug from my dad which i feel so warm and nice before he leave.. of course, i cried like hell. ;-P no why.. i just feel like crying. T_T after my parents left just now, we talked about it within ourself (grace me and ivy). and then WE 3 CRIED AGAIN. lolz. everyone say out the problem facing and think back the past and yeah, C.R.I.E.D. lol. but i feel so comfortable after saying all these to my dad and i get to know that he is always waiting or my call or sms all these while and i never text nor call him before. HE'S IN THE WAITING MODE LIKE WHAT I DID TO CTW. =.= so, i shall call him more in the future? and talk to him more in the future? =) god bless me. i think i can. ^__^ i shall put CTW aside in my heart 1st? until i finish A level? or... till he finishes U *to be exact*. i can wait, no idea about him. anyways.. today had been a really special and meaningful day for me as i did the most unbelievable thing i could ever do in this world. =) i love u daddy. i love u mommy. :-* u know u 2 love me. :) im sorrie if i disappoint u in A level. i tried my best already. xoxo.. ILY


ps, i pierced my ear again. but this time is the other side. what happen to the old piercing? :) ask me personally... =D

skip maths and go yum cha.. =.=

 haha... skip maths owh!!! skip in front of Mr Pau.. but fun tho.. :P i think it's alright la.. once on a blue moon.. not everday.. cuz, if everyday, WE WILL BE BARRED FROM EXAMS.. from Mr Pau. hoho.. we went to Frenz before aending all of them back.. why Frenz?? cuz.. cheap..... gua~ haha.. cuz we are short of cash tht day =D pictures taken yesterday owh... ^__^

CHEATED BY DANIEL!! haha. thought he say act mad or sad but he SMILED!!  :@
but he admit he looks like ngong chan la. haha

this is the normal one... :D

At Frenz.. Easter ordered strawberry milkshake and guess what she say....
"ei, this drink taste like strawberry owh!!" =.= zha dao

And finally......... Daniel's house. haha. it's kindda far and, kindda special!!! :D
Thief will never get to go in cuz of the HIGH gate~ not only his house is like this ar,
ALL of the house there is like this.. ^_^ cute owh..

So, this is our outing before exams... :P got exam hao xiang no exam like tht. lolz... but.. all taking AS and A level de ppl... jiayou la.. =D

hohoho

:D suprisingly i get pass for my biology... =D i know pass is like, so? pass only.. but, yeah, i dun aspect a pass in bio this time. haha.. well, if i go for paper i guess i'll get much more than that!!! =) GAMBATEH.. it's not the end of the world what... ^__^ exam oni ma... if cannot then try another path lor. it's life. ;) u will not know what will happen next or what will come next. :D be optimistic! this is the way to live life. at least, for me.. ^___^ Ms Joanna said that i had improve a lot! just that my answering skill i have to catch up. hoho... do more paper 2 will do la. =) i hope.. ><

and... haha~ yeah, about CTW.. miss him!!! :D starting to miss him whole day.. morning noon evening night midnight,,, ;P he had succesfully poisoned me.. XD

BAD WEEK!!!

i flung my biology and chemistry........... :( we were talking about future with easter these few days. i feel that i dont have any future.. :'( i'm not good in bio, chem. what can i do in future? i can't focus myself, i dont even feel nervous as AS is next wednesday. :(((((((((((((((( WHAT THE FCUK AM I DOING?!?!? haiz.. my future is so blur~ what can i do if i don't get even a pass in A level exam..?  i dont have talent in studying, do i? :S:S:S:S::S

week before AS

stressed out!! damn it! but i trust myself. at least i can pass everything.. :) if i can't..? i'll accept my dad's opinion, stop my studies and.... work..? or take another course? i have to waste my time to start all over again? :( im blur! I think only HIM can help me in making decision.

and today i read a passage in the bible about hope. when one lost their hopes, read this. i think it helps. well, i hope it helps. :) it's in Psalm 126. the passage is like this, 1when the Lord brought back the captivity of Zion, we were like those who dream. 2Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing. Then they said among the nations. "The Lord has done great things for them." 3The Lord has done great things for us, and we are glad. 4Bring back our captivity, O Lord, as the streams in the south. 5Those who sow in tears, shall reap in joy. 6He who continually goes forth weeping, Bearing seed for sowing, Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, Bringing his sheaves with him. yeah, this is basically the whole passage :)

erererer... and.. about CTW, haha~ well, not much to say cuz i do not know how to describe my feelings now. :P

再一次坠入爱河

我不知道这是不是恋爱的感觉。但我好像觉得我在恋爱了~ :D 他是我朋友的同学啦。他姓郑。哈哈~我们是在一次msn聊天认识的。我不知道整个过程是怎样开始的，应该是说不记得啦~但他在西马我在东马，这段恋情真的行得通吗？他也曾经告诉过我他很害怕拍拖，因为以前被伤得很深过。所以如果你问我，现在我们是不是情侣，我不能够回答。因为连我也不清楚我们是什么关系。感觉很象，比朋友多一点点，但又比情人少一点点。不懂啦，顺其自然咯。这些事情是不能勉强的。:)

darkest day of the year 2010 :'(

i can't believe that i actually overslept and missed the 1 hour exam... OMG!! what happen to me owhhh..............  =.= haish... keep sleeping like pig. if AS exam i overslept then no hope ady!! T_T WAKE UP MICHELLE CHEN! i don't expect miss joanna to give me another test paper... I JUST WANT TO SAY SORRY!! but she sure ask me to say sorry to myself but not her la.  urgghh... how i'm gonna see her tomorrow?!??! i have 2 periods with her lagi eh!! haiz............... die la die la... :(:(

2 weeks before AS starts.

thursday is my last day of trial and AS will be coming right after revision week. *sweating* @.@ i don't think i did well in my trial. my dad will be dissapointed again. T_T i don't meant it dad. i think i'm just not so suitable in studying. :( but i'll figure out what i want to do ASAP. :'') and.. today Ah Yan called. :D yay! haha. er.. her mom is sick :( and her ticket to KK is this saturday. :( is she not gonna come this week? will she stay in Tawau if her mom is still not feeling well? but that's her future right... hope she's okay. =) and we talked a lot today...!! i feel so good. ^__^ i told her about JYKT and i asked her what if i re-accept him. haha. i bet u all know what's her reaction and yeah, she said NO. :-P she told me that she can't bear to see me hurt another time. :( i know she love me.... :) and i'm glad she love me that much!! =D i have no school tomorrow and I'M GONNA SLEEP TILL 12PM!! wooohooo.... and according to the survey (in this house only), i'm not the pig, which means i'm not the one who sleep a lot. haha.. ivy is the one.. XD and btw, they spoil the toshiba laptop's adapter. keke... fire sparkles put at the tip of the adapter owh... scary nia!! anyways, luckily they found out early or else i don't know what will happen to grace's face cuz the fire sparkles just beside her face (cuz she's sleeping and the adapter is on the bed). huhu...

stress out!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG........... BIO PAPER 2 TOMORROW~~~ :((((( HOW COME SO FAST!!!! UURRRGHHH..... SCARED LA~~~~~ HAIZ.... sigai scared o.. hmm.... i wish i can remember what i had read la.. :( and today we celebrated q ngiong zai's 45th bdae.. huhu... WE BOUGHT DURIAN CHESSE CAKE!! :D erm.. i think out fridge is too cold la, the cake is a bit frozen d.. haha. but it's still nice ^_^ 

raya open house next door :)

yeah, we went to the raya open house next door :) well, i actually don't plan to go but we're forced to go. haha. but there's no regret going cuz THE FOOD IS SOOO NICE ^_^ got lamb somemore.. hehe and now, i'm thinking of what should i wear tomorrow morning to church.. :( very fan de o.. every saturday and sunday also need to think what clothes are we wearing, with what shoe with what hair.. haha i know it's not necessary but we just too used to think of that prob. ~.~ 

sobs

我又到回几个月前的我了。:-( speechless...

angry owh!!! >:(

urgh, so tired right now :-( why..? cuz... I'M A DRIVER FOR MY COUSINS FOR THE WHOLE DAY!!! well, it's usual. but, don't u think it's too over when u ask a person to fetch u to some where and act as a driver and i'm scolded by grandma again. :'( and i almost bang on a red car. urghh.. i feel as if the journey from kingfisher to taman cempaka is so far.. it's like from north pole to south pole. @.@ i hate to be treated as a driver!! i mean, i enjoy driving but can u please dun talk or speak to me as if that's my job to send u here and there.

owh, and about jykt, he broke up with his 'california gf' and he's single in fb and he start texting me. is this a good or a bad thing? i don't know. :(

and the great thing i've done today was.................I TOUCH MY BLACBERRY TORCH 9800 ALREADY!!! omgomgomgomg!!!!! THAT PHONE IS SO F-KING COOL! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO and the price is cool too.. haha... it's RM2350 after discount. i think it's worth it lor. it can be a touch screen phone or a push up phone. muahahaha... it'll be my new baby.... :D:D and and and... I BOUGHT A PAIR OF NEW SHOE!!! omgomgomgomgomg~ i feel so............. SHUANG!! kekeke... it's like, i stand in the vincci shop and keep changing the 3 pair of shoe and ivy chose for me cuz i can't make any decision. lol. it's a pair of rome slipper la.. i mean, sandal. yeah. love it so much.. huhu.. :D:D there's a pic of my future baby.. :) and a video about it. :) yee pee... ^_^

yeah, i know it's cool right... it can be touch screen or can be push up phone ^^

these are features about the phone ^_^ i bet u'll love it too.. :D:D

musicbox dancer... weee~

very nice song =) learning this ^^

complicated..?

er.. yeah, i feel.. COMPLICATED. hahaha.. cuz i don't know if this is happie or sad or to be worry or whatsoever it is. so.. yeah.. i had my chem exam today and i think i can do OKAY in paper 2 but NOT in paper 1. :'( i don't even know if i can score good marks in paper 2 or not cuz not much that i know. hmm... but NEVERMIND!!! =) *thinking positively* there's another study week after this.


today my friend and i was talking about jobs and i told them about the part time job i wanted yo find =) i need money to buy my blackberry torch 9800!!! :D i can save money for 2 months and i need another 1k.. but i have no idea where to work. :( i just have 2 weeks time to work laa!!! :(:(  anyways, pray that i will get a good job after my AS la. :D

happie lantern day =)

my 1st post.. :D well, it's mooncake festival =) i didn't even eat mooncake today. :( but i have fun playing lantern!! :P it's not like, we're grown ups and we're not suppose to play lantern okay... everyone can :D haha.. i have to study after that. :( exams are all along the way till end of november. :'( i know it's sad but, I'LL DO MY BEST!! ^^, praying is really works when u're nervous or whatsoever it is. u feel scared, anxious, worry, nervous, just pray!! HE'll help u. i can feel it. haha. er.. yeah, i think i flung my maths paper 1 today so i shouldn't have flung the others. JY owh!! and... yeah, i skipped tuition again today.. *whispering* haha.. shhh~ no one knows!! XD