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it's 10th of oct 2010. so, we will write our date like 10.10.10 and yeah, today is a special day. :D why special? haha.. coz of lots of things. =) dennis and the father went to KL for the 10k run organized by Nike. it's kind of waste for me cuz i can't go. :( so, we, 3 ladies (me, grace and q ngiong zai) went ti church la. and, im basically the driver of the day after church. I FEEL STRESS FETCHING SO MANY PEOPLE IN ALPHARD!!! i drive the fastest is 70km/h today!! OMG~ i can't imagine how slow is that but yeah, i get to drive everyone to Karamunsing, 1 Borneo, Karamunsing capital, and yi po's house safely.. :P kindda, urm.. proud of myself? XD ANDANDAND.. my parents came today. they went to see shop*konon konon* and like usual, i received a very big lecture from my dad. :) AND FOR THE 1ST TIME, IN THIS SPECIAL DAY, i told him EVERYTHING!!! EVERYTHING IN MY HEART. i never talked to him these deeply and i never voice out when he's giving me a really really big lecture BUT TODAY........... i voiced out. according to grace, i voice out cuz i can't stand it anymore. =D finally after 19 years of life living in this world. :) i told him that my chem result is NOT GOOD *when i say not good means NOT GOOD, BAD!* yeah, so i thought of stopping school after this term which is next year january. he asked me what do i want to do if i stopped school and i can't answer his question. hr has a point. i can't do anything with only AS cert and that cert is so not nice. and i told him that i'm MIGHT not studying pharmacy. why? cuz of my CHEM! urgh. my chem suck. i know. no matter how hard i studied for chem i cant get a good result. give u better explanation? i can't. seriously. whenever i did all the passyear and asked question, i'll get a really good explanation from tuition teacher or lecturer or friends but still, I CANT GET IT! im not a chemistry person!!! :( i can do well in biology and maths but please not chemistry. and my dad has another point too.. my foundation is too weak. it links to form 4 and 5. and my dad explain to me why didn't he come to visit every 2 weeks like what he had promised although i didn't ask for his explanation. he has to work really hard to earn back those money his ex-staff stole all these time and he has to find money to cover all the expanses like staff's salary, food, etc. and, i get a hug from my dad which i feel so warm and nice before he leave.. of course, i cried like hell. ;-P no why.. i just feel like crying. T_T after my parents left just now, we talked about it within ourself (grace me and ivy). and then WE 3 CRIED AGAIN. lolz. everyone say out the problem facing and think back the past and yeah, C.R.I.E.D. lol. but i feel so comfortable after saying all these to my dad and i get to know that he is always waiting or my call or sms all these while and i never text nor call him before. HE'S IN THE WAITING MODE LIKE WHAT I DID TO CTW. =.= so, i shall call him more in the future? and talk to him more in the future? =) god bless me. i think i can. ^__^ i shall put CTW aside in my heart 1st? until i finish A level? or... till he finishes U *to be exact*. i can wait, no idea about him. anyways.. today had been a really special and meaningful day for me as i did the most unbelievable thing i could ever do in this world. =) i love u daddy. i love u mommy. :-* u know u 2 love me. :) im sorrie if i disappoint u in A level. i tried my best already. xoxo.. ILY


ps, i pierced my ear again. but this time is the other side. what happen to the old piercing? :) ask me personally... =D